Monday, September 10, 2018

The REAL Azealia Banks


Over the weekend Harlem rapper Azealia Banks opened up about her difficult upbringing...












27 comments:

Anonymous said...

If this is true it would explain a lot.

Anonymous said...

Wow. Her dad would be 86 now... She need to get out of her head. This is not black culture. Plus she is obsessed with skin color. All our grandmothers are mixed. We are all complexions. Sounds like her mom was crazy. Has nothing to do with black culture. She want to blame everything on being black. Smh

Anonymous said...

You grown....you know and understand the way you were brought up was wrong...you know there was a better way. You're an adult now...be accountable for your actions and bullshit now cause that childhood excuse shit is played out at this point....accountabilty...any adult walking around blaming present actions on their childhood is a piss poor weak ass....using your childhood as an adult crutch when SO MANY have improved from their childhood gives you no fallback and no sympathy from me

Anonymous said...

Well add all those things plus mental illness. Not saying she should be the way she is but it explains a lot. Besides you can't tell others how to deal with trauma.

Anonymous said...

10:32well you right, but don't do dumb shit as an adult and then blame it on your childhood and expect to be given a pass or forgiven. Perfect example. If a boy got molested as a child and in turn is a molester themselves as adults, if they get busted, you really trying to hear that "I was molested and traumatized as a child so that's my excuse for doing it" shit? No, you know what happened to you as a child was wrong and as an adult you're expected not to repeat that cycle. So fuck yeah you cant tell them how to deal but if they actions hurting others, fuck all that

Niyabinghi/ObeahWomanWarrior said...

Chile majority of us had fucked up childhood. I grew up in Kingston Jamaica among abject poverty, murder, incest, rape and horrific abuse, where the only job available to uneducated women were, prostitution, drug mules for shottas, barmaid/prostitute, booster and drug dealers, or selling shit in the marketplace. We lived in tenement yards, in the harsh backdrop of the ghetto. Moved for a time and lived with my father's mother who had four children and a husband whom everyone feared, that house was a flowers in the attic type environment. Moved to America lived with my grandfather and had a whole bunch of fuckery going down in that household, where he was feared by
his daughters.

Chased home from high school by angry white mob, had yt poured gasoline under my door in the projects, stuck rags under the door and light the apartment on fire on the inside, I was not home at the time, had to physically fight a group of crazy druggie yt's off. I say this to say, I don't use that as an excuse to go around and act like a complete demented asshole. I healed from those tragic experiences, the key word here is healing. You have to heal your wounds the world will not tolerate your rage, hostility, anger and trauma you choose to inflict on it. You will fuck around and run into someone a whole lot crazier than you. She is mentally ill and must work to fix her mental illness and balance her unbalanced spirit. She needs to realize majority of people on this planet, does not matter the race grew up in extreme fucked up environment, most don't walk around like an open, runny pus filled wound flinging blood all over the place. Get yo shit together, no one is tolerating your insanity!!

Anonymous said...

10:45AM I totally get what you're saying but there are many instances where molested men become molesters too when they grow up because that's all they know. Until you heal from all that trauma you are likely to repeat the same pattern. The same way she said her mom was like that because her mother raised her that way. Some things can be generational. Either way I hope she seeks help because she's really talented but she has some serious issues to break from.

The King Of The Real said...

She literally can afford counseling. She literally can stop doing dumb shit. She can get help.

Anonymous said...

@ 10:50

While I can appreciate the gravity of the hard life you've had and that you chose to become a survivor rather than a victim, to tell Azealia that she has to suck it up, learn how to deal or move on shows a gross misunderstanding of how childhood trauma can manifest itself from person to person. I know someone who was systematically raped and abuse from a child until late in her teenaged years. She then embarked on a life of heavy promiscuity until she finished high school. She eventually went to college and met a man that she later married. Has two kids with him and lived a fairly decent suburban life. Twenty plus years later after it would appear that she is living the quintessential American life, she had a series of heavy mental health breakdowns one of which ended her up in a psychiatric hospital. The Pandora's box of childhood horrors that she had painstakingly repressed in the deep recesses of her mind, eventually came bubbling over her. After much therapy, medication and family support she has gotten the tools necessary to deal with her demons when they resurface. Now each time she is faced with the reality of her troubled pass, it hurts and scares her just a little less. And she is well on the way to an emotional renewal. That woman is my wife and the mother of my two children. And I can tell you, from going to family support groups while she was in her therapy program I had to educate myself on how to understand and deal with someone with mental health problems. I quickly realized how little I knew about empathy for the mentally ill and understanding of these diseases. I learned how not to victim blame, how to help without being overbearing, how to nudge instead of pushing, how to identify triggers and how not to be a part of the problem. And now I believe my family is all the better for it.

I don't know if Azealia's childhood trauma (as she describes) it is the only reason for her continued outbursts and anger. And I can guarantee you this reveal is likely only a tiny, tiny fraction of what truly did happen to her. This is true for most victims of childhood trauma, they reveal incrementally, if at all. But I can tell you that if her trauma is only a fraction of what my wife went through it can have a profound impact on someone's life for decades and decades without the proper treatment or support system. All I'm saying is, the child seem a little crazy yes, to the rest of us, but I wouldn't be so flippant as to tell her we've all had shit happened to us so get over it. Her pain may be much deeper than any of us not living in her head can understand.

Anonymous said...

So she KNOWS better but wont DO better. Smart enough to know what causes her self hate and vile habits, yet turns around and spews it to everyone else and in the midst of it all, wants us to feel sorry for her. Okay cool.

Anonymous said...

Niyabinghi/ObeahWomanWarrior very, very well said. I'm glad I got to read about your experience and how we can all benefit from HEALING

Anonymous said...

11:44am that was an excellent read! "Suck it up and move on" is the quintessential anthem for many black people and the mentally ill are often ridiculed and dismissed. Crying, acting out, etc is often looked upon as weakness or stupidity. The complete lack of empathy is unreal and is most likely the reason why black dysfunction is looked upon as normal and sometimes even celebrated.

Anonymous said...

Generations upon generations of black women suffer horrific abuse---burying it and sweeping our feelings, vulnerability and hurt under the rug has gotten us where? We are now looked as "BT 1000's, hairhatted hooligans, black bitches, loud, angry, ignorant, whores, no good,least desired......these traumas do NOT go away and we do not heal from them no matter how strong and resilient we think we are. Why are we not allowed to be vulnerable sometimes? We must forfeit our femininity at every turn only to be looked at as "masculine" and overbearing. Acting out and expression is a road to healing. Now all Azealia has to do is repent from dealing with voo-doo and sorcery. Leave it alone, Sis. Those spirits will further drive you into debauchery and madness

HUH WHATEVER! said...

@11:44 I salute you

Lala Jaymes said...

11:44...you said EVERYTHING that needs to be said regarding this subject matter...truly you did...and we THANK YOU!

Niyabinghi/ObeahWomanWarrior said...

@11:44 AM
Where did you get flippant out of what I wrote? What I stressed was damn near everyone on this planet black white and inbetween has been thought some type of trauma, some have taken it upon themselves to heal, the fact that Azealia went into Palo which I'm also initiated in, instead of working on her psychosis, which when practicing those types of ATR spiritual systems, will make your mental illness so much worse. I stressed healing, not only emotional, physical but also spiritually. She also needs to heal her ancestral bloodline.

Let me drop some spiritual info, folks with traumatic bloodlines must also heal those bloodlines, the old adage as in life so in death, those ancestral energies are still causing her pain along with her own pain, instead of being on social media acting an ass 99% of the time, then want to use the excuse she had a traumatic lifestyle which does not negate you mastering self, before self masters your ass. She need to take her ass on and get some real healing, people like her vibrate on the level of pain, hurt and anger they use it as a weapon. Trust I'm a metaphysical counselor and I have seen it time and time again. Some folks are not interested in healing, they are tormented souls who seek to torment others, much like 80% of the grey race. She Azealia does not want to do the hard work that comes from healing, and trust it's hard as hell, throw in the ancestral energies and you can take half your lifetime healing. I had a female ancestor that used to come to me mad as hell, showing me the rope they hung her with, because she would not submit, then said meet your 3 uncles who were also probably hung with her. Until I did that ancestral work and heard on the astral realm it took this descendant to free us. I never saw her again, I had to also go back in my own mothers akashic records to learn to forgive her as well, my father too. Like your girlfriend I share many of her same experience including the nervous breakdown. But you can come back from that. To heal requires surrender and tons of work to unlearn negative conditioning. Azealia is a stunt queen who enjoys using pain as a method to inflict on others. At this point I"m tired of her shenanigans and excuses, one way or another if she does not take it upon herself to heal, her lifestyle will certainly destroy her and in death she will not have that opportunity to heal, unless she has someone on this side doing the work for her. I am speaking from a spiritual standpoint and when you're dealing with the energies of spirit, Saturn, Sun, Mars and Mercury. You don't have the luxury of pussyfooting around. This age of Aquarius which is really a maiden energy of Saturn, remember before they discovered Uranus Saturn was and still is the governing body, This will not be an era of someone holding your hand and babying you, you and you alone are responsible for your own healing and salvation. It's going to be a lot harder on this planet as the frequency has changed, so her ass better get on that frequency or else. Nothing personal these various ancestral energies and those of the Primordial Mothers are not here for excuses. Healing is very real and very possible, but it does require surrender and mastering of the ego.

Anonymous said...

Niyabhingi, I'm not 11:44 but I have a question....how old where you when you came into this knowledge as far as healing? Azealia is still quite young and rebellious. It takes years to come into this type of wisdom.

Anonymous said...

@Niyabinghi can you PLEASE recommend some books by which I can learn about energies of the spirit. Months ago (last year actually) you mentioned the book The Sibyls: The First Prophetess' of Mami Wata and I bought that.

If you recommend, I will buy. I appreciate any and all suggestions & recommendations!

Thank you in advance!
prissa_O

Anonymous said...

Nyabhingi, I am the original 11:44 poster. Well first of all let me congratulate you again for having the strength, self-awareness and emotional capital to have been able to lift yourself out of the morass that life handed you. You did mention that like my girlfriend (she is actually my wife of many years) you share some of the same traumatic experiences. I can tell you that it took my wife many, many years and only around the time of the psychotic breakdown before she even told me some of the things that had happened to her. And to this day I probably only know a small part of what she actually went through. But I have no desire to have her relive those traumas any more than she has to, so I'm good with what I know. My wife also is not a particularly spiritual person and she did not have religion or deeply held spiritual convictions to shepherd herd through her pain. So then we come back to my original point. Trauma, and in particular sexual trauma, can manifest itself very differently from person to person. Most people repress. Others act out, turning their angst against the world. Others turn their anger inward and self hate or self hurt. Still there are others who just lock those feelings away so deeply that they just completely close off memories of those events and create what is sometimes referred to as a window of amnesia. And in some cases some people even create new inaccurate memories many of which may not even be accurate or real, to mask the pain of what really happened...these are characterized as illusory memories.

What I am saying is, you happen have deeply held spiritual convictions and that may have helped you with your trauma. I and my family rely a little bit more on science and modern medicine to find a path forward, as not all of us are as spiritually grounded as you seem to be.

So instead of telling Azealia to get up off her ass and figure it out the real question we should be asking is what is the root of her pain? And is there a path forward to recovery that fits her individual need? She herself may not even know how to begin. Empathy goes a long away. Shaming, not so much.

ZsaZsaDarling said...

Use this Azealia! God she could be so dope if she got some help. I really like her.

Niyabinghi/ObeahWomanWarrior said...

@Prissa O Here are some of the books I absolutely recommend to relearn our history.

Mami Wata africa's ancient goddess unveiled volume 1 and volume 11. By Mama Zogbe
Our Mothers, our powers, our texts by Teresa Washington.

The Isis Papers. Dr Cress Welsing.

Speaking with spirit by Ra Sekhi Arts Temple.

Egyptian Yoga: Philosophy of Enlightenment by Muata Ashby.

You can usually find me on Amazon reviewing books on spirit.

@5:29 PM
Again not shaming. Just the facts. The root of Azealia problems began with her dysfunctional upbringing and incest. She should begin there, I don't discount science or modern medicine, as I have done those as well. For me as a bipolar individual and former nurse. I know what my triggers are and learning how to manage and master self. The reality is until she takes control and begin the journey to healing and mastering self, she will continue to lash out and cause harm to herself and others. Until she run up on someone even crazier than her. The recent fray with the Tesla dude and according to a source who speaks about her other side gigs in prostitution via S&M. Was a big no no. Trust she is not stupid, and certainly not unconsciousness to what she does, she just don't give a fuck. And yes I'm reading her ass from a spiritual perspective, while you are in your feels on her individual need for recovery. Recovery is a two way street.

Much like people who do drugs and claim it's a disease. No it's a choice Cancer is a disease, so too we can heal from trauma if we so choose. This child is extremely talented and intelligent. If she desired healing, she could have it, using her dysfunction to feed her rage, gives her a lady boner. Btw you do realize some people use their mental illness as an excuse to act an ass don't you? I personally know people who do. We can agree to disagree but I'm not here for Azealia fuckery nor her excuses.

Anonymous said...

"you and you alone are responsible for your healing and salvation"
----typical new age witch philosophy and a good reason why these self appointed "gods and goddesses" have mental and emotional issues and why they rely on sorcery and witchcraft.
Deliverance from the madness and ancestral curses can only come from the power of The Most High-- Father of Abraham, Isaac and Jacob thru the Holy son Yahawa otherwise known as JESUS CHRIST. Not shango, not palo, not rah, shiva,sehkmet,palumbo, etc. Those are all demons who make you THINK they are helping you --Satan disguises himself as an angel of light. Those deities cause the curses, those deities convince you to commit blood sacrifices(murder) and soul rape(incest and other perversions) and it gives the demons legal ground to torment your bloodline. The Most High HATES these things. Azealia needs deliverance and NO she cannot do it alone!

prissa o said...

THANK YOU SO MUCH @Niyabinghi

I will purchase all of these.
So happy right now!!
😁

Anonymous said...

Stay away from Egyptian deities. Ancient Egyptians are incestuous filthy heathens--they are not the negroes of today and never were. Ancient Egyptians were into all sorts of abominable practices. This is why The Most High destroyed them.

Anonymous said...

Until Azealia stops seeking outward validation and works on her inner being she's always gonna be a mess. Can I say great posts btw Niyabinghi!
Some pearls of wisdom dropped and certainly food for thought!

Niyabinghi/ObeahWomanWarrior said...

7:07 PM
You mean the same jesus and most high who held our people in spiritual, mental and physical bondage. Sit yo ass down with that colonizer bullshit. And if you coming at it from the hebrew israelite stance, still sit down with your rabid patriarchal bullshit, who is also colonizer bullshit.

7:12 PM
I don't know what kind of Egyptian deities yo ass studied, you must be talking about the Greeks who ripped off the entire kemetic pantheon and created all manner of debauchery, of which your black (nubian) college fraternities still follow today. For you to make such an insane statement, you have never studied Ancient Kemetic Neterianism. Sit down and good night!!

Anonymous said...

CORRECT! No one cares. Enough with this crazy bih.

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